An open letter to my children: part one


Dear Children,

You will never know…

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  • The elation I felt upon discovering I was pregnant with each of you.
  • The blend of excitement and anxiety that accompanied each of my pregnancies.
  • The incredible sensation of feeling you wiggle inside my tummy.
  • The mix of impatience, fear, and joy as each pregnancy neared its end.
  • The hours spent with my head over the toilet, being sick.
  • The countless sleepless nights because I just couldn’t get comfortable.
  • The number of times I prodded and poked my tummy, just to check if you were okay.
  • The hours I spent wondering what you would look like.
  • The rudeness I endured from complete strangers and even from those close to us.
  • The number of times I was asked when you would arrive.
  • The hours spent trying to encourage your arrival and the lengths I went to.
  • The pain and fear during your inductions and labours.

You will not remember…

  • What my heart sounds like from the inside – you are the only four people in the world who have heard that.
  • The look on my face when you were placed on my tummy.
  • Me whispering in your ear, “I’m your Mummy.”
  • The way I held you so tight.
  • The hours I spent feeding you at night.
  • All the times I walked, rocked, and sang you to sleep.
  • The way I stared at your tiny features and marvelled at how you grew inside me.
  • The times I panicked and worried when you were poorly.
  • The mix of anxiety, joy, love, and fulfilment you have brought me every day since you arrived.
  • How proud you have made me every single day.
  • All the times you made me laugh out loud.
  • How you four have made me a stronger, better, and happier person.
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These are my special memories, ones that represent our bond. I am so grateful to be your Mummy and so lucky to have experienced motherhood four times in four unique ways. Each time one of you was born, my heart grew bigger to hold all the love inside.

36 comments

  1. Aww that is so sweet. I think I would say many of the same things to my little one too if I was to write her a letter. It is funny isn't it, how much joy but also anxiety and fear having children brings to your life. Definitely more joy, but there is the worry as well there.. #brilliantblogposts

  2. What a beautiful post. When I do eventually get pregnant I am going to record each and every moment – and I am so lucky to have a blog this time around. I whispered the exact same thing to Grace when she was born. Thank you for linking to #PoCoLo x

  3. This post really moved us, – so touching and I could relates to so many of the points 🙂 I must start writing more things down, – as it is very captivating to reconnecting with the strong emotions, thank you for sharing

  4. Oh I was almost in tears and goosebumps all the same. What a great post. I love this and so true and beautiful written. Thank you so much for linking up to Share With Me and I hope to see you again tomorrow for another great round. #sharewithme

  5. “Stronger, better, happier”. A million times less. This beautiful. Perhaps you could have it framed as a gift for each child’s wedding?

    Thanks for linking up at #TwinklyTuesday.

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